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RainartI polymorphed into an immortal crow falling down
As silent teardrops of crying separated clouds
Love retired, my heart became a forsaken town
as judgement that I sentenced to blindness
Everyday somethings changing n running away
Feeling the calm before the storm
Crying wasn't hard before than today
Missing the spring rain with voiceless screams
Living the pain of a javelin in deathly daydreams.
Sometimes still drinking jack
not only dressing' black
Living as a stranger in my mortal body
Listening to the melody of whispering winds
I believe someday the rain will return
and all my tears fly by in the heartaches.
Darker than BlackI believed that
Life was behind a mountain that I've seen far beyond the horizon
As though I would find myself up there.
Yet the climax was so different
I could recall the past
the secrets I've hidden from myself
I could see the future
The rocks falling from cliff
Hear my the voice of my heart
and the death it silently brings
My eyes were full moon in a rainy night
Time was slowing down, sun was fading in black sea
I was preparing to rest while stars are waking up
There are a lot of things to be lived
The scent of flowers I couldn't make mine
The blossoms of trees I couldn't touch
What was that, the price I've paid
Like the tears of women imprisoned in eternity
Why I was sentenced in this darkness
It was one last letter that I've written,
How far was the life, how close the death
Why living was so hard as dying so easy
When the darkness became darker than black
The Days Shall Come
The days shall come; silent, alone, with nights cold and dark,
The days shall come, tastless is the food, I am without you, the roads I am passing is swamp.
The days like the ones I have lived before you, shall come,
and words would be useless to tell the story of my eyes.
Rainy days shall come when tears shall flow from my cheeks like creeds,
Parts would break off from my heart, an unending land slide.
Days that I have understood that no one would look at me like you do, days that I got lost in mirrors,
Days that I would know that you are smiling in somewhere though the smile I have fades away.
Though these days shall pass as the others do,
My heart is like a rock, eroded by waves,
It shall go on beating, like the waves.
And I shall, with the dreams never fullfilled and the words I have cried out to cosmos,
Would be tasting the sulfur left in air from the fire once burned in my soul,
In this hell called which I carry it's heaven within.
Could you tell me,
How many nights you have cried all alone?
I am asking, how many times ?
you have banished the clouds and become the rain
and where you have laid your eyes upon
when the things in your heart became too much and poured from your eyes?
Did you search the love in flowers or in stars?
Can the crystall clear drops in your heart, extinguish
the fire that burns you within..
Do not embrace the silence, the darkness.
I stand by your side, all alone.
Laugh as much as you can.
Let the rains turn to Rainbow.
It was a hot day of November,
warm of light faded when the day after.
I was sitting alone at the park reading newspaper.
As yesterday, my pain and screams, silently I remember.
Two people came around me who were dressing black leather.
Their face were look like police or something like soldier.
I was feeling their anger behind the sunglasses.
A little conversation started about university,
their curiosity were cold and dark.
It was about the secret communities.
They were kind at the beginning,
I told, I'm just a student of that university.
Then, I told seriously, I'm not involved about politics.
Of course they didn't believe,
I understood that from their mimics.
I wish to explain feelings with the voiceless screams.
I just asked to sky why you left me alone,
I wish to know where you have gone.
Never be sad, my tears just for your love,
I know you will sent us, many dove.
That's the first night without you.
I saw you dressed all white now.
My heart still beating your breath,
You didn't lose the battle with death.
I wish to feel you hear my voice from there.
My heart implore to you...
Please sometimes come to my dream.
You and me, We were so great team.
Your glorious love created me.
I grew up with your honesty.
You showed me how to be powerful,
No longer weakness cant take me.
We shine with the Sun, We cry on the moon,
I still have your smile.
Your silent wisdom living in my heart,
My soul will keep your love and purity.
That heart will never stop to bleed you.
I promise you...
Unknown II - Love Remembered
I thought,I found you..
But I was wrong.
Your love so strong..
I was searching you..
I dont know who you are?
I'm sorry for you
I dont have power to find you..
Where are you ?
We still meet in dreams..
Your face's hiding in shadows.
I'm crying to find you..
My heart's burning like you.
I feel you..
I dont know which is right ?
I'm going outside from my lair
I'm fighting with evils beyond the fire..
Every battle, for the sake of your desire..
You're stroking my hair when we meet again..
Clouds're turning to lovely red without pain,
You're kissing me before the rain..
My dreams're turning to nightmares..
When you fade to black.
There is a big crack on my heart..
I'm so weak when I wake up..
You are right, I cant grow up.
I love you like a cherub..
One day I wish to embrace you.
I dont know who you are,
But I love you..
Unknown I - Love Eternal
I'm strolling at the streets..
I find you in every darkness.
I don't know anything about you.
I share my love with nobody because it's yours.
When sunlight comes, I'm turning back to my grave.
and I'm ressurecting when darkness comes again..
You're shining on the sky like gold..
I see a big smile when I look in to your face.
I couldn't tell you that my trouble's because my fear,
I was trying to tell about my love.
but I couldn't..
I was living for hope when I met you,
I'm happy to see you in my dream..
We can't speak and I can't listen to your voice in my dreams anymore.
But you stopped the time when I look in to your face.
How many years've past, I don't know..
We met every night,
I was fighting with death to reach you.
But you make me feel alone when I come back to earth..
I lived with you in my dream..
I woke up in mornings when you disappear.
I cried with voiceless screaming..
I don't know how we finish this nightmare.
But I hope when I wake up and hug you it's over..
Colours Part II: White to Gray
Altough I feel the colours, I couldnt see..
The green of grass,
The blue of Sky,
and those colourful flowers,
You've been creating the all colours..
I was White when i was born..
I live the colours with your light.
I reached to you by Rainbow..
You showed me, the passion,
Then my soul gone to you..
And there was a Black inside me..
I see that when you hide behind the mountains..
I've forgotten it when you've embraced me.
Essentially i was gray..
You were the One who created me..
You were the Sun.
Renkleri hissettim ama göremedim..
Ve o rengarenk cicekleri..
Sen yaratiyordun bütün o renkleri..
Renkleri senin isiginla yasadim.
Sana gökkusagiyla ulastim..
Tutkuyu gösterdin bana..
O zaman verdim ruhumu sana..
Birde Siyah vardi içimde,
Daglarin arkasina saklandiginda anladim..
Love Song for DagmarShes a glutton, shes no kitten; she can stuff her face for Britain
See her sitting in her Citroen, you can spot her from afar.
She is buxom, she is brazen, see her bottom, its amazing,
She is straining at the straplets of her cantilevered bra.
Shes an airship, shes a trawler, still I worship and adore her
Shes a randy landslide riding in her flash French car.
As a goddess, shes the oddest, and shes vulgar and immodest
Shes the empress of breast, she is my sweet Dagmar.
Shes no figment, shes no fragment, shes a fat fridge magnet
and shes sticking like a limpet to that big white door.
You can like it, you can lump it, shes a slattern, shes a strumpet
You can fill her to the limit - shell come begging you for more.
I am smitten, sycophantic; in her panties shes gigantic
As Im straddled, panting, frantic on the pinewood pantry floor.
See her glorious posterior, imperious, superior -
He lays me down & spreads me out on his bed.
He tells me he wants to relieve my stress & help me rest my head.
He runs his fingers through my hair & he kisses my lips,
He takes away the tension by playing with me below my hips.
As my legs are up high in the air,
I feel like I have no worries or cares.
He plays me so hard I let out a slight yell,
& I wonder if something this good will put me in hell.
Some people told me I shouldn't try
Because all you do is make me cry
But I love you to much to let you go
I love you more then you think you know
You tell me that you just don't care
All those times I needed you there
to hold me when i hurt real bad
to dry my tears, and take my sad
you can't understand how i feel inside
when it was over, I just died
All I want is for you to see
is what you really mean to me
Ever since that horrible day
that i heard those words you had to say
I can't stop thinking about you
I want you to know all this is true
Everything you've read
is about the things you've said
I'll never, ever stop tryin'
But I am so sick of Cryin'
Can You Accept Me?Can You Accept Me?:
I'll admit I've done my share of things
Of which I know I can never be proud
And I've tried my best to be a better man;
But I guess I can't right now
The mistakes I've made are pretty clear to me
It's not like I can just wipe a 'tat'
The symbols that go all around my body;
And the numbers on my back...
They're all reminders of who I used to be
What I used to do and how I used to live
But that man just isn't me anymore;
And I need a chance that only you can give
I guess what I really want to say is that:
I'm trying my hardest to change for better
And I need to know that you can forgive me
And so I'm sending you this letter
If it gets to you, then let me know
Reply to me and tell me clear
Can we still be a family?
Can I hope to have you near?
We've been through hell and I know I've done wrong
I never should have stayed just an angry kid
And now that we have one of our own;
I think I know that I need to quit
So please just give me a second chance
April's HouseThe man who would be my lover through April had a daughter.
I showed her Playboys from 1999 and she grabbed at my breasts.
In mid-April my lover's grandmother died in a Michigan hospital.
The night before we had hurried sex on a friend's floor and in his shower.
I lay naked on a dark blue couch watching B list horror movies
with names like Frankenhooker and drank carbonated strawberry wine.
The floor was covered in empty Bacardi bottles and powdered Cheetos
while the bathroom smelled of concentrated bleach and urine.
I could crawl out onto the flat tarry roof through a second story window.
On the fourth of July I sat on the functionless brick chimney and got high.
The roof in South Oakland always reminded me of Mary Poppins.
Vodka coursing through my blood, I danced like a chimney sweep.
A man with bleached hair and long nails filed to a point walked me home.
He said, Margaret, I want you, and I knew I had stayed in a house full of lies.
The Feelings That LingerThe Feelings That Linger:
The sound of your voice still lingers here
Even though I know you're gone...
And my nights have turned to sleepless days;
They grow worse with every dawn...
You've probably heard this story though
At least a thousand times or more.
But the thing I remember best about her
Is the sound of that closing door...
It was like the end to everything;
A cloud inside my head.
When I came awake on that final night;
I reached for her in bed-
But an empty space was all I got;
There was no one to wipe these tears.
I could scream and cry for many hours;
But it wouldn't chase my fears.
I tried so hard to tell myself
That everything would be alright.
But instead I ended up reminsicing
About her ever-present light...
I'm just so tired of everything;
I wish I didn't have to think...
But maybe you'll hear me one last time;
If I put this down in ink:
We had a life that was beautiful
In MemoriamAfter: I set on the walk to home,
By woodland paths; I paced, I paced
But then as the cloak of dark came down,
I nearing my old town- was not braced
For that image of moths, flickering blue-
I stumbled there; reminded of you.
So I spun on my heels in evening gloam,
By autumn leaves I raced, I raced
Away from the moments that rendered in silver,
Cast glamour on the forest face
And stabbed through the shimmer of early dew-
I could have died there, surrounded by you.
KissYou don't need to put your hair up
To show you wear a crown
You don't need to paint your face up
To make my walls fall down
You don't need a Wonderbra
To let your sexy shine
You don't need gold or diamonds
To tell the world you're fine
You don't need designer clothes
To prove that you have class
You don't need to know Houdini
To make the magic last
All you need is your sweet love
To be the woman I dream of.
His Never-Wed BrideBriskly comes the bloody winter winds vent
Gray dusk looms over my shattered homestead
The crows caw makes known the warriors descent
Across the dying pasture, misted red
Glory, comes now my once sweetly adored!
Fighting brothers with valiant reluctance
His tender eyes shut, his breathing no more
His body lies stone-cold with stiffened stance
How well he fought for his country and lass
Like Prince Paris, fighting for what he claimed
Now laid ready for a still, somber mass
His face in my conscience forever famed
Gone is the restful warmth of his skin
Gone is the honey-like voice from his tongue
Yet, here he lays, surrounded by my kin
His bluing ears deaf to their praises sung
His eyes like mirrors reflect my despair
His hand is unresponsive to my grasp
Though I know his spirit now watches where
He can escape all maddened soldiers' clasps
Heavens bells peal, the seraphine choir sings
For he has joined the chorus of angels
I can nearly hear his pleasant voice ring
Mia Regina Di Cuori
Every winter, I was searching you in the piece of snow on the pine.
Every autumn, I cried with you when the trees started to whine.
Every spring, My hopes bloomed with the flowers but I was quite.
Every summer beneath the rain, my heart was drinking wine.
I dont know what does time means,
I didnt ask why the grass is green,
I lived you when I touched to ocean,
You were so pure, I heared your chant so clean.
Thousand years ago, people was searching the lost treasures, after byzantine.
I saw lots of city ruined, just because of greed, they lived apocalypse.
I read the stories, people weren't pure,
I understood the love was the treasure.
Thats why my travel was into deepest waters with the submarine.
I was trying to reach you under the aquamarine.
Your soul was so pure, you were so sincere,
You were my heart special, you were the one.
I understood, Also You were living with me before sixteen.
Anymore our eyes started to shine.
On my heart I saw your sign.
I started to write with you that
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